05-05-05

This time around, the whole first trimester finger-on-the-pulse reaction that BioMom and I are having is nearly unbearable for both of us (especially for her). I can hear the anxiety and stress in her voice today reporting that she is not feeling as nauseous as usual. For the second day in a row now she has felt less nauseated, as compared to Monday where she felt the height of nausea. She told me today that she didn't think she'd be able to wait until June 3rd to have a doctor make sure that all is alright, and I can hear her wish from me to reassure her some way. I can't even express how hard this is. Also, even if we had a doctor confirm the fetus' health today, there is no assurance that it will be o.k. tomorrow. Absolutely infuriating.